One Year. Reflection. Hope.

Alternate title: I love this life.

Today marks one year since I graduated from college with my bachelor’s degree. It’s gone by so fast!

About two weeks ago, a question from my Bible Study Fellowship lesson was “How do you measure the success of a pursuit?” Do you measure success by your happiness? What about the success of the journey? Maybe there’s something about how you get to where you want to be that’s just as great as that final destination. Perhaps, you measure success on how your experience can be pointed back to Jesus or God and what He has done in your life.

“And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father.”

Colossians 3:17

Success for me came with a lot of prayer, support, and honestly tears. A year ago I was worried if I would pass one or two classes. A year before that I had that same fear. Failing is never easy and when I really did fail, I wanted to blame the circumstance.. which I know that I also played a role in that failure and that maybe had I been a better student from the onset, I would have pulled through at the end. In the end, I was able to retake that class and make myself proud (like seriously, turned a D into an A).

Being out of school has been a lot less stressful. There’s been stress in other ways but when it gets time to go to bed and all those worries flood my brain, I know that God is in control and that worries about money or other worldly things are insignificant because God will provide, He always has for me.

God has shown me that when I submit to Him, my life is vibrant and full of hope. I have excitement and am encouraged for the future because of His promises and the Kingdom He is building for us. God has provided in amazing ways this past year and I’ve been brought through many trials. I want to fall more in love with God this year and be in His word this summer without BSF to go to (which I’m going to greatly miss every until the fall).

I discovered this song just over a week ago and the lyrics are relatable to my last year of no school and what I’ve been through.

At the end of this month, it will have been one year since I left my first job in an accounting position. I miss that job, the people… and the covered parking… And sometimes when I’m wondering or wishing what if I just hadn’t have gone to the college I did? What if I had taken a year off or went to the community college? Probably wouldn’t have the debt but I wouldn’t have the friends I have, I wouldn’t have been able to work where I did because it was all college specific circumstances that brought me to those places. The opportunities I have had I sometimes don’t understand, like how could everything have just worked out so perfectly like that? It was God’s provision and His plan, that’s all I can say. Every time I ever had doubts or felt like I would never be where I am today… He had it in His hands and I just had to have faith. I serve a great and mighty God and I’m grateful for all that He has done, what He’s doing, and what He will do in the weeks, months, and years to come.

On a less serious note… people still don’t believe that I’m a college graduate because of how young I look. They probably think I’m a genius and went to college at 15 🙂 #FakeNews

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