Sunday morning, I don’t know what it was, but I was feeling useless. Like not useless… but yeah, guess so. Like I wasn’t being used by God. God’s using everyone else but me. I’m not helping anyone.

During our Sunday service I was just asking God how are you going to use me? How can you use me?

By the end of the service I was just asking what was for lunch, because ya girl’s stomach had turned into a whale, but that’s a whole other story of patience because it was another hour plus before I was able get food in front of me.

After lunch, I came home and did some reading. I’ve been so tired, just sleepy, over the weekend. I’m not sure why, but I’m about to go take a B12 dissolvable tablet! Wild. I read for a while and took a nap. I don’t like napping, I usually wake up with a headache, TBH.

So I laid my head down and got cozy. I woke up suddenly and had that moment of what day, year and time is it? I felt like I had slept for an eternity. Literally, forever. It had really only been an hour. I still felt sleepy, but the first thing I thought of was I want to go to Barnes & Noble. Which shouldn’t be too surprising, but I haven’t been to B&N in a hot minute. I’d prefer to go to Mardel, the Christian bookstore in this region, but alas, they are not open on Sundays, just like Chick-fil-a.

I don’t even need more books, but I needed to get out and I was going to insert myself into a possible book-buying situation. I was prepared.

The thing is, I got there and the books had been moved around a little so I walked around and finally found them. I was taking my time. There was a girl nearby in the same section looking at books and maybe talking on the phone. She came over to me and asked for some recommendations. She shared that she was new to reading. She was wanting some good Christian stuff to read. You know I always have book recs, but someone new to the scene? GIRL.

I shared a few things in the fiction and nonfiction section. She learned some things because of my knowledge of books and authors. I mean, most things in the Christian fiction section is fine, but we all have our favorites.

After she walked off to browse, I felt like I had really been helpful. Not that I’m not normally a helpful person, but like… God was showing me how I, in my unique way, can be used by Him. I can generously and kindly help someone find books that suit them and bring them closer to Him. It’s not always a big showy thing or something that everyone will understand, but still brings a simple impact on someone else.

I also didn’t find a single thing to buy. Which doesn’t happen very often, but nothing spoke to me. I walked out of there empty handed, but filled up at the same time.

I’m convinced God urged me to be in the right place and right time for that girl who was a young mom and looking to get into Christ honoring books rather than stuck on her phone. If I hadn’t have been there, who would have? Why not me?

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If you’re like me and feeling useless, just ask God in humble prayer how He can use you and take the opportunity He presents to you. Sometimes He answers faster than you think He will.* Don’t underestimate our Mighty God.

*Results may vary, depending on God’s will.

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:28

Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.

Proverbs 19:21