I saw some ad thing on Instagram and a question that stuck out to me was basically When did you begin to trust Jesus with your life and not just with your salvation?
When you first became a believer, it’s very likely that you didn’t know everything. You didn’t fully grasp giving Jesus your life, or what that even meant. Maybe you did though – could have been you were testing the waters in some way and then took the plunge when you figured some things out. If I had to guess, it’s the former though.
This question relates to me specifically because when I was 8 and gave my life to Jesus, I wasn’t a bad kid, but I’m just sayin’ that I got worse after 8 and I know I didn’t know much of anything – barely knew who Jesus was (unfortunately).
I don’t remember much of the process I went through, but I remember saying the prayer, walking up to the front of the sanctuary and talking to my pastor about it and then like a few weeks later, on Father’s Day, I got baptized.
I struggled with things like who God is and what was the significance of Jesus years later. I had unanswered questions, but I didn’t ask because I thought I should know these things. I’d grown up in church, I’d sat at the same tables and in the same pews as my peers for about the same length of time and they knew so much more than me. It was embarrassing.
Why didn’t you just read? Well, back in those days, I didn’t read much. I didn’t know where to start. Mostly, I just didn’t have the passion of reading like I do at this point in my life.
I did start though eventually. Not sure when that was exactly, but it was sometime at the beginning of college when I had so much going on. I was away from home a lot, working, going to school, involved in church more, having actual friends and a social life. You’d think if I was so busy that I wouldn’t learn about God in that, but that’s how it happened. I learned to trust Him in those times, more than I ever did. It felt like that was all I could do.
I started to understand that trusting in Jesus wasn’t just something you added to your beliefs with the actions of going to church every Sunday, going to Wednesday night Bible study, etc. It was an actual relationship – one where you can fully give your burdens of every kind over time Him and you can fully trust in Him. Not only trust in His work for your salvation, but with your whole life and wherever that life takes you. Do I do this all the time? No, but progress over perfection, here. Over time, that level trust and dependence just grows as it does with any relationship.
Thank God that I never strayed too far and I always had Him with me in those growing years – and in my growing years still.
At age 26, I’m far from an expert. I feel like as I’m about to type I know a thing or two, that it’s part of that insurance (Allstate?? I can’t remember) commercial. ANYWAYS.
When did you begin to really trust Jesus with your whole life? Was it when you first believed or later on in life?
Now I would remind you, brothers, of the gospel I preached to you, which you received, in which you stand, and by which you are being saved, if you hold fast to the word I preached to you—unless you believed in vain. For I delivered to you as of first importance what I also received: that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures, and that he appeared to Cephas, then to the twelve. Then he appeared to more than five hundred brothers at one time, most of whom are still alive, though some have fallen asleep. Then he appeared to James, then to all the apostles. Last of all, as to one untimely born, he appeared also to me. For I am the least of the apostles, unworthy to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God.1 Corinthians 15:1-9
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.Proverbs 3:5
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act.Psalm 37:5
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I understand. I was 12 when I got saved. Yet I didn’t know a whole lot either. It took me a long time to realize that we should have a relationship with the Lord and surrender everything to Him. I made a lot of mistakes. And sometimes when I dwell on it, I am bitter. I wonder why no one ever explained things to me. I feel I could have avoided a lot of regrets, if I had known more about what Christianity really meant. I did try reading the Bible. But at 12, it was rough, so I quickly gave up. I didn’t start reading the Bible for myself until much later. I am older than you, far from perfect, and still trying to figure these things out. So don’t sell yourself too short! You are doing better than you think!
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When I think about how much I DIDN’T know, I’m like wow, did I have a lot to learn! Haha
I understand the bitterness – sometimes I think about that too, like why didn’t anyone sit down and explain things to me or ask me if I had questions? But then, would I have asked the questions? I was incredibly shy and didn’t question much of anything. Still shy, but I question things more now!
Reading the Bible back then was KJV and I couldn’t 😅 I’m an ESV kid now. I thought KJV was all there was! That was probably a contribution to the whole not reading to learn.
Only when we get to heaven will we come to perfect understanding – it’s just progress while we’re here until God brings us to full transformation later. My desire right now is simply to not give up learning new things.
Thank you 🤗
I’m glad!! 😃🤗
Life with Jesus is a journey that is a process. We grow at different paces and at times may fall back but he is always there to lift us back uo.
So true!! He is always there with His children.