Last week I was having intermittent internet issues. It would work, it wouldn’t, I would get kicked out of my Remote Desktop, my nephew couldn’t connect to the internet from his school laptop… the whole sundae with a cherry. Last Thursday right after I “came back from lunch,” which is me just logging back into my laptop after sitting in a different chair across the room to read… I was able to log in and soon it was so slow. Like what’s the point of working when I have to wait ten years for the document to open kind of slow.
There I was trying to fix my own problems.
I restarted the internet (which for me is unplugging the cord everything is connected to from the wall and waiting – going to do something else for a minute – and then plugging it back in, wait for the internet to come up, connect, let it become secure and then try it all again).
That happened four times. I was shook.
My IT guy at my company that i call directly to him because he knows how my laptop/desktop is, knows what happens on the regular and basically knows all my technical issues! Anyway… he was on vacation but was available if needed and if he was actually at home and able to get on.
Was he? No. I don’t blame him! Leave work at work.
But I needed him…
I called IT and the guy was super helpful, super nice, but I got nowhere. I called to confirm that it was my home internet having issues and after a few minutes, we concluded that yes it was and guess who was going to have to deal with the internet company??
It gets better though. Eventually.
The company ran their test, said it seemed fine and then asked me more questions. They ran their test again and said yeah, it’s not receiving a signal on your equipment so we’ll send someone out. I picked the closest time available which wasn’t until the next day in the evening. Not cool… but it was all that was available at the time.
I ended up not being able to finish work that day and I just hate when that stuff happens because I really enjoy what I do, some people may not think it’s that great of a job, but I think it’s wonderful and I don’t like getting behind on my to-do lists.
I thought I was going to have to go into the actual office that Friday to work but Thursday night I checked and the internet was back to where it should be and working fine. Friday morning it was still fine and so I called the internet company back and they said they never scheduled anyone and there was never a work order.
So yeah, they had to retest it all and then they ended up coming Sunday. I wanted to confirm that everything was still good and nothing with my equipment inside or cables outside the house were bad. Everything checked out and I’m as confused as I was last Thursday.
This is how we are with God.
Things happen at the worst time. We can’t believe this is happening. Why is this happening, God? We don’t see the point, we simply don’t know all the variables.
I’ve been going through some things and I’ve really had to get into the word and remind myself that God is in control even when I don’t know what to do, why things are the way they are or what God has in store for the future days, weeks, months and years to come.
My comfort and peace toward my current circumstance could only come from God because I know that when I was far from God years ago, I would have been so anxious and so tormented by negative thoughts that I wouldn’t have been able to stand it. None of this is me or any special ritual. God is my comforter and He brings me so much more than I probably deserve. I’ve learned, and am still learning, to let go and let God take my burdens and the things that weigh me down so that I can do more of what He wants me to do.
In the midst of trials, when you can’t control what others do or say, you can’t control what things happen, what you can control is your own response in actions and words. I pray that the things I do and say would be thought out and reflect Him and His heart over my own. I pray the same for you, too.
Let your conversation be gracious and attractive so that you will have the right response for everyone.Colossians 4:6
Don’t let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity.1 Timothy 4:12